Crash

My body has been screaming, “no!”, for days now and I must give in and rest. This is what I would call a cumulative pain flare up.

I was lucky enough to have my husband’s sister and brother-in-law and their two boys, ages 3 and 7, stay with us about two and half weeks ago and we had so much fun! I wouldn’t change a thing.

I tried to pace myself but wanted to miss out on as little as possible.My nephews are so beautiful and smart and fun❤😊❤ I wanted to spend as much time with them and their parents as possible. 

After the boys left, along with their patents we had my husband’s Mum stay with us for another week, which was great as we get along so very well.

I began to really notice fatigue, low tolerance for going out, increased pain levels, and general irritability during the past week. My husband and his Mum were kindly indulgent of me and incredibly understanding about my limitations. 

As of yesterday, Mum left for home, and my fatigue finally kicked into high gear. Now for the really tricky part. 

I must take care of myself.

This is so much harder than it sounds. There are dishes in the sink, beds need changing and laundry needs doing. For now I must push these items down far lower on my list and accept rest as a priority activity and not feel inferior or lazy.

I find it hard to admit I’ve pushed too hard. I see  people moving through life at breakneck speed and achieving left and right and I want that back so badly. 

For now I must accept my body’s mandatory invitation to rest for as long as it takes to recover. This flare up will end then I can get back to living a little more and inching forward once again.

K

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1 thought on “Crash”

  1. Hi K. I feel your pain. Last week I had a horrible flare up. I want to do more but my body says no. We see everyone around me going on and achieving great things but we live in chronic pain. It’s ok if it the sink is full of dishes and the bed is not made. The important thing is to rest and take care of yourself. I’m learning that it is ok to be selfish. We must listen to our body and heal. I miss out on a lot of events and some people may not understand but I have to do whats best for me. I hope your flare-up passes quickly. You have so much strength and courage. Take the time your body needs. You are are from lazy instead you are the opposite…you are determined, brave and motivated! Sending you healing hugs!

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