Don’t Wait, Access Services Now

If you’re feeling helpless, hopeless, alone, anxious, depressed, angry, or like you might hurt yourself or someone else do no not pass go, do not collect $200, go directly to a mental healthcare provider.

I’m not saying to commit yourself tomorrow but do try shopping around to see what kind of assistance is available and what will suit you best. Just get the ball rolling.

Try calling a 24 hour distress line. That’s what they’re there for. You’re problems are in no way too inconsequential to be unworthy of help. Distress lines deal with panic and anxiety, depression, anger, delusions, and more all the time and if they feel you need further assistance or resources they’re usually able to offer info on the spot.

If you’ve often thought about talking to your doctor about ritualistic behaviours, like excessive hand washing, or checking and re-checking door locks but you keep putting it off because you don’t think it’s severe enough to mention, make an appointment now. You’re worth it. Look after your mental health as though it’s as important as any vital organ, because it is.

If you keep telling yourself your difficulties with flashbacks and nightmares about a trauma aren’t worth seeking help for, tell yourself to make you a priority and make an appointment to discuss your concerns.

If your worried the psychiatric world will ram drugs down your throat tell the doctor you want to try a drug free therapy before trying medication. Commit to helping yourself get help. Drugs are not the only option, nor are they always the best option. Everyone is different and that’s alright.

You are not alone. There is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of. Finding the strength to get help is something to be incredibly proud of.

If you’re concerned about monetary barriers discuss this with your regional mental health care provider. Many wonderful programs are often covered under provincial health or subsidized.

Try having a look here in canada;

https://suicideprevention.ca/need-help/

Try starting here if you’re in the USA;

https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/talk-to-someone-now/

If you’re in a more rural location there are lots of interesting therapy options online. You should also be able to access a 24 hour distress line for the region or province.

Take control. Take care of you and remember, you won’t ever feel any better if you don’t bother trying. Fight for yourself with whatever bit of strength you’ve got left. Help is out there and you can begin to find your old self again.

K

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Holiday stress – Hell Yes!

I felt sick yesterday. Couldn’t eat, just wanted to sleep. I thought it was the flu but I’m not so sure. In the evening I thought more and more about why I might be feeling ill and then it clicked.

I’m freaking out!

This time last year and the year before I’ve been holed up in the psych ward, suicidal but safe. This year I’ve been doing ok but no matter how positive I am I can’t help but recall flashbacks and fear going back there again.

I’m also slowly trying to get my house tidied up as my Awesome, super-lovable Mum-in-law is coming to stay for a bit. I’m really excited and I know she just wants to see us but I still want to make things special for her of course.

I’m trying to do some meal planning and feeling guilty I don’t do any of the baking I used to do before I fucked up my back. I want to make French-Canadian Toutiere (meat pie) as I have for many years like my Mom and my Grandmother but I’m cheating this year and not making pastry from scratch like I used to.

There are a lot of things I simply haven’t got the energy or mental wherewithal to do anymore and saying this at 38 because of mental illness and chronic pain is crushing no matter if I should be used to it by now or not😢 Lowering my expectations was never a goal I thought I’d make. Lol!

My social anxiety seems to have kicked into high gear lately which is super great because this is the time of year for visiting. Yeeeeeah!

Anyway, ignoring all these feelings and worries and then over thinking them sent me into a full panic attack last night. Luckily my husband was able to talk me down a bit and make me laugh. The anti-anxiety meds helped too😉

But good things are happening also, I visited a close friend and her adorable baby and we decorated cookies, and chatted, and played with the babe. It was really a nice way to spend an afternoon. I even tolerated the first Christmas music of the season.

Happy Greetings & Season’s Holiday!

K